[ About three conflicting emotions flood into his mind all at once now, and he's surprised at himself for how strong more than one of them is. The first is pride, pride that his packmates, that Ada in particular, the first one he welcomed into the fold and the fourth overall after him and Nariko and Yamato would so vehemently defend and show her loaylty to this pack and to him. But the second is to Yamato, for serving as a challenge enough that it would inspire that sort of fear in her, that it would serve as a challenge. That's something he always said he wanted, and something that he expected out of Junko and Nariko expected out of Koji. To have it out of Yamato was a blessing, a surprise and...
Terrifying.
His eyes go a little bit wider, but he tries not to let anything else show on his body. It's impossible not to fear it though, that feeling that he's obsolete, that this is a challenge which he might not be able to overcome, that he's even gone so far as to lay claim to (to successfully lay claim to, perhaps even more importantly) his mate is cause enough for concern... but Audrey joined because of him. Yamato's not unpopular with the others. If (when) he leaves, how many of his ranks will he poach from Masaomi. It's a game of human chess that he, as an Alpha, doesn't like to play because of the overall fair way that he tries to handle things, but it's something that must be considered.
After all, children stay with the mother.
Or maybe Yamato would try to supplant him? But he knows in the moment he feels the third emotion wave over him that he's perhaps being irrational, even if it's still something that doesn't feel unfounded, and something that he does, in fact, appreciate Ada for in this moment. But the third emotion was a general feeling of clarity, that he knows he's not had a chance to really sit down and talk with his son since Christmas, and the challenge displayed there, that he issued because of that ring, was ultimately inconclusive. And Nariko had started it, been sucked in by it.
Perhaps that was inevitable. He exhales and, ]
This pack doesn't believe in thoughtcrime, so perhaps Ada over-zealous in this respect. But that's something that I will need to talk with the boy about. [ A beat ] And maybe those two women as well - after all, you're free under my authority.
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Terrifying.
His eyes go a little bit wider, but he tries not to let anything else show on his body. It's impossible not to fear it though, that feeling that he's obsolete, that this is a challenge which he might not be able to overcome, that he's even gone so far as to lay claim to (to successfully lay claim to, perhaps even more importantly) his mate is cause enough for concern... but Audrey joined because of him. Yamato's not unpopular with the others. If (when) he leaves, how many of his ranks will he poach from Masaomi. It's a game of human chess that he, as an Alpha, doesn't like to play because of the overall fair way that he tries to handle things, but it's something that must be considered.
After all, children stay with the mother.
Or maybe Yamato would try to supplant him? But he knows in the moment he feels the third emotion wave over him that he's perhaps being irrational, even if it's still something that doesn't feel unfounded, and something that he does, in fact, appreciate Ada for in this moment. But the third emotion was a general feeling of clarity, that he knows he's not had a chance to really sit down and talk with his son since Christmas, and the challenge displayed there, that he issued because of that ring, was ultimately inconclusive. And Nariko had started it, been sucked in by it.
Perhaps that was inevitable. He exhales and, ]
This pack doesn't believe in thoughtcrime, so perhaps Ada over-zealous in this respect. But that's something that I will need to talk with the boy about. [ A beat ] And maybe those two women as well - after all, you're free under my authority.