[It's true that she loves her brother so incredibly that it's almost a ridiculous feeling, like it shouldn't be as consuming and demanding as it is, it's amazing. And it is also true that the way she feels about him is entirely separate from how she feels about either mate, it's too intrinsically linked to their relationship as siblings to be immediately comparable.
But to say that there isn't a part of her that isn't dedicated to Masaomi even now would be incredibly false.
She does love Nathan though, enough that no one would blame him for thinking she might put him over anyone else. In the moment it only seems right as she kisses him back, and reaches one hand up to wipe at his cheeks. He's always been the more openly sensitive one and, honestly, it's something she loves about him.
It's stupid but she wants to say as much but all that comes out is some heavy, dark noise from the back of her throat. Talking might be a little beyond her.]
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But to say that there isn't a part of her that isn't dedicated to Masaomi even now would be incredibly false.
She does love Nathan though, enough that no one would blame him for thinking she might put him over anyone else. In the moment it only seems right as she kisses him back, and reaches one hand up to wipe at his cheeks. He's always been the more openly sensitive one and, honestly, it's something she loves about him.
It's stupid but she wants to say as much but all that comes out is some heavy, dark noise from the back of her throat. Talking might be a little beyond her.]