[ Nooooo, he actually makes a petulant whining noise to her, suddenly an asthmatic child all over again. He'd been hiding so many things for so many years, secrecy is second nature to him. Him and Nariko might have been totally open with each other as children (right?) but he had shattered that bond and then she had utterly severed it. She had been willfully ignorant, and then distanced herself from him after he took action on that ignorance. And so...

So he was in a strange position here, having lied, hid, and compartmentalized his entire adult life, and he realizes that unlike when they were kids, she didn't have to do the same now. Well, not as much. She had been freed by her relationship with that man, even if he was an idiot.

Mostly an idiot. ]

I like ... I like doing it with drugs involved. It don't have to or anything, especially with you, but it's still a fetish I love a lot.

[ There's more, like how he's in withdrawal about it since his failed proposal, but. ]