Huh. [She tilts her head then, looking both appreciative of the tactic as well as somewhat judging.] Not a bad idea. It forces people to consider how they might present themselves, and you can judge what they don't realize they're showing. [She might respect him a little more for that approach. But it does leave her in an interesting situation - How does she start? Where does she begin?]
At Thanksgiving Yamato seemed really surprised that I didn't want to sleep with you. I thought that was kind of funny, to be honest, and I said that it had to do with you being his dad, with being an authority figure. I've never really liked situations where the stakes aren't even, so you can imagine how upset I've been with most of life. Nothing is ever really fair, and if there is some way that everything balances out through religion or karma or whatever, well, it's too big for me to witness. I hate it.
[This is ... A completely different side to her. She's been herself in the house but only Junko has seen the parts of Audrey that are down to Earth, so logical that it could be frustrating, so emotional she could be confusing.] But when I think about it, that wasn't actually the case. First of all, you're really hot. If Ms. Lunae didn't scare me I'd probably give it a shot, but frankly I value my innards. [She can't help grinning at that, but pushes back on curled bit of blonde hair to get back on track.]
I feel that way about it because one of the things I've deeply appreciated is that it hasn't been like that with you. I never get a break from hearing about how smart I am, so why am do I like sex so much? Or, 'you're so pretty, why do you want to actually go to school'? I can't win no matter what I do, and no matter how hard I try. I'd already been friends with Junko for a year by the time I just gave up. At some point you have to cut your losses.
[She looks up at the ceiling, mostly just to put her words together.] And the simple fact of the matter is that I don't think even you or Yamato or Ms. Lunae or any Alpha anywhere can be entirely fair. If you want to say that we as human beings are biologically destined to multiple relationships, to existing as a cohesive group rather than singular pairs, then I also think it's only fair to admit that as humans we have times where we favor one person or ideal or desire over another. To try and deny that works against everything, but to admit it helps make everything uneven, too.
[Which brings her back to her incredibly long-winded point.] If there's one thing that I love about this pack and this house, for all of its intricacies and all the things I don't understand, it's that you try. Everyone is honest to the best of their abilities, everyone works hard in their own way, in that sense this is its own utopia. It's because I've been here for the last few weeks that I don't really want to give up on anything anymore. Not on being happy, not on eventually having a good relationship with my parents, and not on myself. Before anything else, Mr. Kida, I have to thank you for that.
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At Thanksgiving Yamato seemed really surprised that I didn't want to sleep with you. I thought that was kind of funny, to be honest, and I said that it had to do with you being his dad, with being an authority figure. I've never really liked situations where the stakes aren't even, so you can imagine how upset I've been with most of life. Nothing is ever really fair, and if there is some way that everything balances out through religion or karma or whatever, well, it's too big for me to witness. I hate it.
[This is ... A completely different side to her. She's been herself in the house but only Junko has seen the parts of Audrey that are down to Earth, so logical that it could be frustrating, so emotional she could be confusing.] But when I think about it, that wasn't actually the case. First of all, you're really hot. If Ms. Lunae didn't scare me I'd probably give it a shot, but frankly I value my innards. [She can't help grinning at that, but pushes back on curled bit of blonde hair to get back on track.]
I feel that way about it because one of the things I've deeply appreciated is that it hasn't been like that with you. I never get a break from hearing about how smart I am, so why am do I like sex so much? Or, 'you're so pretty, why do you want to actually go to school'? I can't win no matter what I do, and no matter how hard I try. I'd already been friends with Junko for a year by the time I just gave up. At some point you have to cut your losses.
[She looks up at the ceiling, mostly just to put her words together.] And the simple fact of the matter is that I don't think even you or Yamato or Ms. Lunae or any Alpha anywhere can be entirely fair. If you want to say that we as human beings are biologically destined to multiple relationships, to existing as a cohesive group rather than singular pairs, then I also think it's only fair to admit that as humans we have times where we favor one person or ideal or desire over another. To try and deny that works against everything, but to admit it helps make everything uneven, too.
[Which brings her back to her incredibly long-winded point.] If there's one thing that I love about this pack and this house, for all of its intricacies and all the things I don't understand, it's that you try. Everyone is honest to the best of their abilities, everyone works hard in their own way, in that sense this is its own utopia. It's because I've been here for the last few weeks that I don't really want to give up on anything anymore. Not on being happy, not on eventually having a good relationship with my parents, and not on myself. Before anything else, Mr. Kida, I have to thank you for that.